[ Even though he just spent all that time in the shower with her, Jesse finds himself watching as Guin drops her towel to change into some pajamas. He's clad in boxers himself, and the only reason he even put those on was because he didn't want her to feel like he was pushing for them to fool around. Yeah, he always wants her, especially considering it's been so long since the last time she was actually in the same room instead of some disembodied voice on the phone, but he's also not a jerk and he knows she's been through a lot. ]
I mean, you're always on my mind, Guin. Even when you're not here.
[ He gives her hand a little squeeze before he lifts it to his face, gently kissing along her skin. ]
Especially when you're not here.
[ He mutters the words against her hand before he lowers it back to the bed, his blue eyes flicking up to her face, a little smile growing on his. It's a mixture of happiness and woe, a song that his heart sings every time she comes home, knowing it's short-lived and she'll be gone again before he's ready to let her go. ]
[ It's unlikely as long as she's in her current assignment. Her team is specifically assigned to the European theater, so the entire group would have to go somewhere else, and there's not a lot of intelligence activity in New Mexico. But Guin wants to come home. On nights like these, she wants out of the high-pressure world of Naval Intelligence. Wants a reassignment to the local base where she can sleep in her own place instead of the hotel of the week.
What keeps her from asking is a sense of responsibility, knowing that she's doing something important and memorable, and not something more run of the mill. Not every soldier can do what she does. Sometimes she doesn't even think she can do what she does. If she keeps coming home banged up like this she has to start questioning her toughness.
But that look on Jesse's face makes her heart melt and she moves a little closer to him. Hoping to reassure him, both of them, with her proximity. ]
I probably shouldn't push my luck tonight, but how about we get up early tomorrow and fool around before we go out and eat more than we should? That way you find me sexy before I eat all the things.
[ The grin making clear she's joking and doesn't really think there's any chance he won't find her sexy. If Jesse were that shallow he probably would have been turned off the first time she came home bleeding. But she wants him just as much as she wants her. She's just hopeful that she'll be better after it after a night of TV and cuddling and maybe some making out. Anything that reminds her she's home. Literally and because she's with him. ]
[ Jesse asks, but he can't help but feel a little skeptical. He knows that Guin's in the military for the long run. She's strong-willed and smart. She wouldn't give up on something that she's already sacrificed so much for. But if it ever gets to be too much, and she decides to transfer somewhere nearby, Jesse'll be there. The same way that he always is whenever she comes home. The same way he tries to keep in touch with her, even if it's just a short text or a minute-long phone call whenever she can manage. It isn't easy, but he feels like she's worth it. There haven't been many people in his life who he felt really understood him. Guin's probably the one who's come the closest. He can't just let something like that slip away.
He slips an arm around her when Guin slides closer to him, just wanting to feel her close. He might not admit it out loud, but there are nights he dreams about her from time to time and wakes up clutching onto a pillow. They don't have to fuck for him to feel that way about her. It's deeper than that. ]
You know I'll never say no to that.
[ Jesse laughs a little, nudging Guin's shoulder and then pressing a kiss to it. ]
We can just chill tonight. No pressure on the morning, either. Though you know how I am when I first wake up.
Well, I mean... we don't get to see each other as often as we want.
[ She gives a bashful smile. Not knowing where she's necessarily headed next or how long she'll be away means she makes the most of every time she gets to see him. That includes usually flirting with him. Enjoying the physical companionship, even though she knows it's not necessary for him to care about her. She just needs to give herself time to recover before she can think about that part.
But this is what she's fighting for. Not for them, necessarily; she knows he'll always be here, and she will always keep coming back. But for other couples and other families around the world who deserve happiness and safety and security. Giving other people the opportunity by ensuring they don't get hurt. She may be out of her depth, may be tired of going through the wringer all the time, but she only complains to Jesse because it feels unfair when other people have it a lot worse. And for all her arrogance, if she can help change that, she wants to. ]
You ever think much about the future? Like, when we get older, what we're gonna do? Will we still be here or somewhere else?
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Date: 2023-11-09 10:03 pm (UTC)I mean, you're always on my mind, Guin. Even when you're not here.
[ He gives her hand a little squeeze before he lifts it to his face, gently kissing along her skin. ]
Especially when you're not here.
[ He mutters the words against her hand before he lowers it back to the bed, his blue eyes flicking up to her face, a little smile growing on his. It's a mixture of happiness and woe, a song that his heart sings every time she comes home, knowing it's short-lived and she'll be gone again before he's ready to let her go. ]
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Date: 2023-11-10 02:57 am (UTC)[ It's unlikely as long as she's in her current assignment. Her team is specifically assigned to the European theater, so the entire group would have to go somewhere else, and there's not a lot of intelligence activity in New Mexico. But Guin wants to come home. On nights like these, she wants out of the high-pressure world of Naval Intelligence. Wants a reassignment to the local base where she can sleep in her own place instead of the hotel of the week.
What keeps her from asking is a sense of responsibility, knowing that she's doing something important and memorable, and not something more run of the mill. Not every soldier can do what she does. Sometimes she doesn't even think she can do what she does. If she keeps coming home banged up like this she has to start questioning her toughness.
But that look on Jesse's face makes her heart melt and she moves a little closer to him. Hoping to reassure him, both of them, with her proximity. ]
I probably shouldn't push my luck tonight, but how about we get up early tomorrow and fool around before we go out and eat more than we should? That way you find me sexy before I eat all the things.
[ The grin making clear she's joking and doesn't really think there's any chance he won't find her sexy. If Jesse were that shallow he probably would have been turned off the first time she came home bleeding. But she wants him just as much as she wants her. She's just hopeful that she'll be better after it after a night of TV and cuddling and maybe some making out. Anything that reminds her she's home. Literally and because she's with him. ]
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Date: 2023-12-17 05:39 am (UTC)[ Jesse asks, but he can't help but feel a little skeptical. He knows that Guin's in the military for the long run. She's strong-willed and smart. She wouldn't give up on something that she's already sacrificed so much for. But if it ever gets to be too much, and she decides to transfer somewhere nearby, Jesse'll be there. The same way that he always is whenever she comes home. The same way he tries to keep in touch with her, even if it's just a short text or a minute-long phone call whenever she can manage. It isn't easy, but he feels like she's worth it. There haven't been many people in his life who he felt really understood him. Guin's probably the one who's come the closest. He can't just let something like that slip away.
He slips an arm around her when Guin slides closer to him, just wanting to feel her close. He might not admit it out loud, but there are nights he dreams about her from time to time and wakes up clutching onto a pillow. They don't have to fuck for him to feel that way about her. It's deeper than that. ]
You know I'll never say no to that.
[ Jesse laughs a little, nudging Guin's shoulder and then pressing a kiss to it. ]
We can just chill tonight. No pressure on the morning, either. Though you know how I am when I first wake up.
[ Morning wood and all. ]
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Date: 2023-12-17 12:00 pm (UTC)[ She gives a bashful smile. Not knowing where she's necessarily headed next or how long she'll be away means she makes the most of every time she gets to see him. That includes usually flirting with him. Enjoying the physical companionship, even though she knows it's not necessary for him to care about her. She just needs to give herself time to recover before she can think about that part.
But this is what she's fighting for. Not for them, necessarily; she knows he'll always be here, and she will always keep coming back. But for other couples and other families around the world who deserve happiness and safety and security. Giving other people the opportunity by ensuring they don't get hurt. She may be out of her depth, may be tired of going through the wringer all the time, but she only complains to Jesse because it feels unfair when other people have it a lot worse. And for all her arrogance, if she can help change that, she wants to. ]
You ever think much about the future? Like, when we get older, what we're gonna do? Will we still be here or somewhere else?