[Easier to joke than to point out the truth goes both ways. She would rather be involved with someone who’s doing something illegal but is at least honest about it than another guy who pretends to be some upstanding dude. They may not have any commitments to each other, but Guin knows that whenever she finds her way back home Jesse will be there and vice versa. That trust is all she really needs.]
I’m glad you’re keeping the heat off you. There are some truly reprehensible people who get involved in that shit, and you don’t need to get mixed up with those kind of assholes. Just keep doing you.
I’m happy that I enlisted. I’m in the best shape of my life because of the physical training and I’m learning all kinds of cool stuff. But sometimes it can be a bit much. The schedule and just realizing people are going to depend on me. I’m lucky that you’re here to take my mind off everything.
[ Jesse might not be the most savory of characters according to society, but that doesn't mean he's a bad person necessarily. Even being involved in the world of illegal drugs, he's always had a decent moral compass. He never sells to kids and makes it a habit to avoid selling to people who have never tried the stuff before. He doesn't want to be responsible for kick-starting someone's addiction, but if they're already on the stuff he figures they'll just get it somewhere else if not from him. He doesn't believe in violence and would rather run than get involved in a fight.
He isn't like most people involved in his line of work. Jesse has a good heart and a decent head on his shoulders. He just doesn't fit into the whole nine-to-five job scene. School's never been a strong-suit, either, and without much of a resume to speak of, his employment options are limited. He'd like to be an entrepreneur if he had a choice, but it's not easy to just start your own business without any tangible qualifications. ]
Yeah, I know. No worries; I been careful. I miss you a lot when you're gone but, like, I'm seriously proud of you for doin' all that. Enlisting. The training's hard as fuck, at least from what I seen on TV and shit. I'm sure those shows don't even really do it justice. But, it's awesome that you're, like, making somethin' of your life, you know?
[ Jesse really is proud of her. He's not even saying it in comparison to himself. It would be easy for someone like Jesse to get jealous, but he doesn't. He's just genuinely happy for her. ]
But, yeah...I mean, whenever things get to be too much you know I'll be here to help you blow off some steam if nothin' else.
[She'd spoken vaguely in the past about how her first boyfriend had led her on for a while, even going so far as to talk about planning a future together, before he had literally disappeared out of her life. Guin harbored a bitterness over not so much the breakup as allowing herself to be played. She had been guarded ever since so to have at least one person in her life she knew wouldn't bullshit her, even if the answer wasn't safe or pretty, was important. She just didn't always say these things because she never knew how to make them come out right. But she thought he understood.]
It's gonna be great. I'm finally feeling like I'm living up to my full potential instead of all that crap they taught us in school. Actually part of me wants to go back and flip off all those teachers who said I'd never be anything. [Laughs.] And I'm going to get to help people, which is important. But it's also scary, because I don't want to mess up if other people are depending on me.
I'm glad that you're happy, though. And I'm glad that I can still make you happy.
[A statement she seals by leaning over for a kiss.]
Kinda annoyed that I have to wait for this pizza to get here when I sort of want you on top of me like right now.
[ Jesse knows how much it means to Guin that he makes himself available to her, and really it's his pleasure to do it. It's not a chore for him or anything. He knows, at least vaguely, what she'd been through with her ex-boyfriend and, even though the two of them aren't official or anything, he knows that he'd never do anything like that to her. He can't even imagine it, and he tries his best to show her that he's different than the people in her past. It's one of the reasons that he's always completely open and honest with her. He wants Guin to know that she can trust him, even when the truth is sometimes hard to expose. ]
That's awesome. You're awesome. Seriously, like, I don't even know why you hang around me. You're way outta my league.
[ Jesse laughs, half-joking. He knows there are reasons that they get along so well and he also knows that Guin sees him for him and doesn't particularly care that he's not some bigshot lawyer or doctor. She likes him for the person he is, and that means more to him than she could ever truly understand. He leans in to kiss her back and then groans a little as she pulls back. ]
I knoooow, it feels like it's taking forever. But you know that as soon as we start messing around it's gonna get here. It's like that whole watching a pot and it doesn't boil thing. As soon as we decide to get into somethin' instead of waiting, it'll get here. It's, like, scientifically proven.
[ No it's not, Jesse. But whatever. It makes her laugh anyway, hopefully. ]
[She giggles at the strange metaphor before pushing herself up.]
I'll go down and get it. It can't be that much longer.
[Plus it will take her a few minutes to find all of her clothes, or at least enough of them to not look disheveled when she goes down to the lobby. Guin elects not to put her bra or underwear back on as she quickly dresses and then slips out of the room. By that point, she's not waiting long and then after one more trip up the elevator she's backing through the door with the pizza box in one hand and a bag containing the drinks and the breadsticks in the other.
Not one for caring about appearances, she brings everything to the bed before kicking off her shoes again. She doesn't want to make him get up if he doesn't want to and she can be extra careful not to get crumbs anywhere.]
Hopefully this is big enough but there's a fridge if we have leftovers. Just try not to drop any hot pizza on yourself.
[See she can make dorky comments too as she settles in to eat. She may be doing so a little faster than usual because of her slight impatience. While she doesn't mind whenever they get back to business, having Jesse naked in front of her is a definite distraction.]
Yeahhhh...about that. See, nah, I've already been traumatized by that one time I decided to cook bacon naked, so.
[ Jesse cringes at the thought, pushing himself up off the bed so he can at least pull his boxers back on. No need to get fully dressed, but he might as well protect his most important bits. Once he's at least partly dressed, he moves to help her set everything out, grabbing one of the provided paper plates and loading it with a slice of pizza. He's starving. Jesse hasn't been eating so well lately. More out of being so busy than being broke, though it's been for both reasons in the past. He hums around the mouthful, eyes rolling up. ]
[She snickers at this little anecdote she didn’t know, although it comes with a fair amount of empathy for the pain. Despite coming from a fairly well to do family, Guin has always had the sensibility of someone more down to earth. She would rather be in a hotel room eating pizza than in any kind of fine dining joint.]
I’m making lots of friends on the base with how I’m good with doing stuff with my hands. They’re pretty impressed by it. But that doesn’t and has never included cooking unless you count fixing someone’s electric range.
We all know how I feel about your hands. [Laughing.] Sorry, the double entendre was too easy.
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Date: 2022-08-26 07:16 am (UTC)[Easier to joke than to point out the truth goes both ways. She would rather be involved with someone who’s doing something illegal but is at least honest about it than another guy who pretends to be some upstanding dude. They may not have any commitments to each other, but Guin knows that whenever she finds her way back home Jesse will be there and vice versa. That trust is all she really needs.]
I’m glad you’re keeping the heat off you. There are some truly reprehensible people who get involved in that shit, and you don’t need to get mixed up with those kind of assholes. Just keep doing you.
I’m happy that I enlisted. I’m in the best shape of my life because of the physical training and I’m learning all kinds of cool stuff. But sometimes it can be a bit much. The schedule and just realizing people are going to depend on me. I’m lucky that you’re here to take my mind off everything.
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Date: 2022-08-26 03:54 pm (UTC)He isn't like most people involved in his line of work. Jesse has a good heart and a decent head on his shoulders. He just doesn't fit into the whole nine-to-five job scene. School's never been a strong-suit, either, and without much of a resume to speak of, his employment options are limited. He'd like to be an entrepreneur if he had a choice, but it's not easy to just start your own business without any tangible qualifications. ]
Yeah, I know. No worries; I been careful. I miss you a lot when you're gone but, like, I'm seriously proud of you for doin' all that. Enlisting. The training's hard as fuck, at least from what I seen on TV and shit. I'm sure those shows don't even really do it justice. But, it's awesome that you're, like, making somethin' of your life, you know?
[ Jesse really is proud of her. He's not even saying it in comparison to himself. It would be easy for someone like Jesse to get jealous, but he doesn't. He's just genuinely happy for her. ]
But, yeah...I mean, whenever things get to be too much you know I'll be here to help you blow off some steam if nothin' else.
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Date: 2022-08-26 04:16 pm (UTC)[She'd spoken vaguely in the past about how her first boyfriend had led her on for a while, even going so far as to talk about planning a future together, before he had literally disappeared out of her life. Guin harbored a bitterness over not so much the breakup as allowing herself to be played. She had been guarded ever since so to have at least one person in her life she knew wouldn't bullshit her, even if the answer wasn't safe or pretty, was important. She just didn't always say these things because she never knew how to make them come out right. But she thought he understood.]
It's gonna be great. I'm finally feeling like I'm living up to my full potential instead of all that crap they taught us in school. Actually part of me wants to go back and flip off all those teachers who said I'd never be anything. [Laughs.] And I'm going to get to help people, which is important. But it's also scary, because I don't want to mess up if other people are depending on me.
I'm glad that you're happy, though. And I'm glad that I can still make you happy.
[A statement she seals by leaning over for a kiss.]
Kinda annoyed that I have to wait for this pizza to get here when I sort of want you on top of me like right now.
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Date: 2022-08-27 09:31 am (UTC)That's awesome. You're awesome. Seriously, like, I don't even know why you hang around me. You're way outta my league.
[ Jesse laughs, half-joking. He knows there are reasons that they get along so well and he also knows that Guin sees him for him and doesn't particularly care that he's not some bigshot lawyer or doctor. She likes him for the person he is, and that means more to him than she could ever truly understand. He leans in to kiss her back and then groans a little as she pulls back. ]
I knoooow, it feels like it's taking forever. But you know that as soon as we start messing around it's gonna get here. It's like that whole watching a pot and it doesn't boil thing. As soon as we decide to get into somethin' instead of waiting, it'll get here. It's, like, scientifically proven.
[ No it's not, Jesse. But whatever. It makes her laugh anyway, hopefully. ]
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Date: 2022-08-27 10:55 am (UTC)I'll go down and get it. It can't be that much longer.
[Plus it will take her a few minutes to find all of her clothes, or at least enough of them to not look disheveled when she goes down to the lobby. Guin elects not to put her bra or underwear back on as she quickly dresses and then slips out of the room. By that point, she's not waiting long and then after one more trip up the elevator she's backing through the door with the pizza box in one hand and a bag containing the drinks and the breadsticks in the other.
Not one for caring about appearances, she brings everything to the bed before kicking off her shoes again. She doesn't want to make him get up if he doesn't want to and she can be extra careful not to get crumbs anywhere.]
Hopefully this is big enough but there's a fridge if we have leftovers. Just try not to drop any hot pizza on yourself.
[See she can make dorky comments too as she settles in to eat. She may be doing so a little faster than usual because of her slight impatience. While she doesn't mind whenever they get back to business, having Jesse naked in front of her is a definite distraction.]
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Date: 2022-08-28 05:05 am (UTC)[ Jesse cringes at the thought, pushing himself up off the bed so he can at least pull his boxers back on. No need to get fully dressed, but he might as well protect his most important bits. Once he's at least partly dressed, he moves to help her set everything out, grabbing one of the provided paper plates and loading it with a slice of pizza. He's starving. Jesse hasn't been eating so well lately. More out of being so busy than being broke, though it's been for both reasons in the past. He hums around the mouthful, eyes rolling up. ]
Oh, man. This was such a good decision.
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Date: 2022-08-28 05:42 am (UTC)[She snickers at this little anecdote she didn’t know, although it comes with a fair amount of empathy for the pain. Despite coming from a fairly well to do family, Guin has always had the sensibility of someone more down to earth. She would rather be in a hotel room eating pizza than in any kind of fine dining joint.]
I’m making lots of friends on the base with how I’m good with doing stuff with my hands. They’re pretty impressed by it. But that doesn’t and has never included cooking unless you count fixing someone’s electric range.
We all know how I feel about your hands. [Laughing.] Sorry, the double entendre was too easy.