[There's something inherently sexy about fire. Fire and darkness maybe. It sets a sort of sensual ambiance, one that she feels falling around them as the night really sets in. It's pretty to see the orange red of sunset fade away. She sips her wine and picks up a piece of melon that's cut into a heart to pop into her mouth. Maybe she's gone a little overboard with the basket for just the two of them, but she'd been excited for their picnic date. She's pleased when he starts eating.]
Sounds like I have another excuse to come over to your place then.
[She picks up a finger sandwich. She likes those little cucumber sandwiches, but she guesses Jesse might want something a little heartier. There's smoked salmon with cream cheese and dill as well as ham with brie and thin apple slices. She chooses the ham to nibble on.] I hope you like it. I know I got a little carried away, but at least we'll have something to eat if we stay until morning!
[ Jesse can agree about fire in the dark creating a romantic kind of ambiance. It's probably why fancy date-night type restaurants dim the lights after a certain hour and have tea candles lit on every table. There's something ancient about being drawn to fire. Mesmerized. The warmth and light pulling people close. It's practically in their blood. Fire meant safety prehistorically, and Jesse has his own stoner theories about how some of that sentiment and feeling is still within us. ]
You don't need an excuse to come over. You can just ask.
[ Jesse smiles, teasing. He knew what she meant, but he always gives the people he likes a little bit of a hard time. Just to see them smile if for nothing else. He chooses a ham sandwich after his prosciutto and cheese, though he eats the thing in one bit even though it's probably meant for two or three. Dainty he is not. But he tries. ]
I packed some stuff in the mini-fridge for breakfast, but the fridge means we got room for the leftovers, so they won't be wasted either way. Are you busy tomorrow? Like...if we stay is there a certain time you gotta be back by?
[ Jesse wants to make sure she knows he realizes she has other obligations and he wants to respect that. ]
[She doesn't miss a beat when he offers. She's playfully teasing though she is intrigued by the idea of curling up with him before it. It's not the right weather for it necessarily, not like the coldness of the desert all the way out here. Then again, if they get too warm, they can just take off their clothes. Problem solved. With a sandwich finished off, she tries the smoked salmon and sighs at how good it is. She's pleased that he's thoughtful enough to pack food for breakfast. She's sold on staying here overnight with him.]
You're a pretty romantic guy, you know that?
[She's been on all kinds of dates over the years. All across the world. But this one takes the cake. It's intimate and sweet, and she's enjoying every moment. She shakes her head and reassures him she doesn't have plans in the morning. Her mornings usually consist of an early morning run, but she can go without.]
Nah. I've got all the time in the world right now.
[ Jesse laughs as she asks right away, but he plays along. ]
Yeah, of course.
[ He bites his lower lip, giving her an almost apologetic look when she calls him romantic. He knows she doesn't mean it in a bad way, but he's also aware of the fact that it's not everybody's thing. If his friends found out about this, they'd probably poke fun at him for days, but that's just the way they are. They don't mean real harm by it. The truth is, Jesse's always been a romantic at heart. He just hasn't had many opportunities to show that side of him to anyone. ]
Is that...cool with you?
[ He has to ask, even though she hasn't given him any signs that what he's been doing bothers her. Jesse's just the type of guy who has to check in on how the people around him are doing. He's not always the best judge of what might be going on in someone's head. ]
Cool, I'll cook us breakfast in the morning, then.
Are you kidding? Totally cool with me. It's not often that guys are this sweet and thoughtful.
[Ted has been like that. Her boyfriends prior, not quite. Alexis had once been led by the shine of adventure and excitement and handsome faces. Having boyfriend throw money at her and take her on fancy trips isn't true affection. It doesn't mean they actually cared. She's learned that now, and she likes to think she has better taste in partners.
Jesse sometimes gets this almost bashful look on his face when they talk. It's like he's shy. Or worried. She wants him to know she's in this with him. There's no faking it or pretending. She's here because she likes him. He makes her laugh and smile. She feeds him a piece of fruit.]
So tell me. What's your favorite thing about being out here?
[ Jesse nods and gives Alexis a smile to let her know he's not just saying that and trying to hide his feelings or anything. Being romantic just...comes naturally to him. It feels like the right thing to do, to him. Why not show someone you're growing feelings for that you care? It seems almost silly not to. He's well aware that life's too short. If you don't show someone how you feel now, you might never get a chance for it later.
He eats the piece of fruit and then picks up another sandwich, chewing as he thinks over her question. ]
Definitely the stars. There's no light pollution out here, so once it gets fully dark you can see more stars than you ever can in the city. They used to take us on these field trips to the planetarium at school and I swear it looks just like that. Sometimes you can catch a few shooting stars, too.
[With the fire burning, it's not too cold. The stars are really starting to shine brighter. Her shoulder brushes against his. She nibbles on some of the pasta salad and sips at the wine. Gazing up at the sky, she does feel a lovely sense of peace wash over her. She's really glad that they came out here.]
I love living in the city, but I love sights like these too. I remember being out in the middle of nowhere in Thailand. Everything was so crazy, and I wasn't sure I was going to make it home safely but-- I just looked up at the sky and all the stars, and it felt like it would all be okay.
[ Jesse scoots a little closer to her, but doesn't put his arm around her just yet. Only because they're still picking at the food she brought for dinner. Jesse eats another piece of fruit and takes a sip from his tumbler of wine. ]
Thailand, huh? That must've been pretty cool. I've only seen it on, like, TV or whatever. Never been out of the country. Hell, I've barely left the state. Someday, though.
[ He smiles, thinking. Some day he'll be able to retire and travel the world. Keeping his mind on thoughts like that makes the rough days easier. ]
But--hold on, you said you weren't sure you'd make it home safe? What happened?
[ Jesse turns his body more towards hers, eager to find out. Partially because he can definitely relate to being in unsafe situations, but also because she doesn't seem like the type to get herself into those situations. He's curious. ]
I was trapped in the trunk of a Thai drug lord. I had to bribe him to escape. He was actually very pleasant until the money ran out.
[It's said lightly and matter of factly. It's simply part of her life. Aroon had been very nice. Granted, she had to bribe him with sex, but she figures that's not something she should bring up on a date. She's not ashamed of what she did, but she doesn't want Jesse to see her differently. Or judge her for it. She really wants him to like her.]
That's...yeah, I'm glad you made it out safe, too.
[ For a moment, he's tempted to talk about how he can relate--why he truly knows how harrowing a situation it must have been, if Thai drug lords are anything like Mexican ones. He surely remembers what it was like waking up in Tuco's trunk, a machine gun pointed at his face. But thankfully, they were both alive to tell the tale or...to not tell it. He does want to tell her, but he's afraid of where the line of questioning might lead after that, and he doesn't want to put her in a position where she feels uncomfortable but can't leave. So, he keeps it to himself, for now.
Jesse finishes his plate of pasta salad and scoots a little closer, slipping an arm around Alexis' lower back. He still had a hand free to sip at his wine and pick at some fruit if he wants, but he's also making sure to leave room for s'mores. ]
[She gives him a teasing wink. Alexis has certainly seen and been through a lot, but she's never let it get her down. From checkpoints in South Africa to playing billiard for her friend's freedom in a Ugandan drug smuggler's villa, she doesn't spook very easy. She doesn't look it. With her bubbly demeanor and boss babe energy, people usually didn't expect her to be taken hostage so many times.
She loves the warmth of his arm around her. She leans in and brushes her lips along his cheek. She's really excited for s'mores.]
Sounds like you have a lot of stories to tell. Maybe someday I'll get to hear all of 'em.
[ And maybe someday he'll be able to share some of what he's been through, too, though it's undoubtedly heavy subject matter, even if there are some lighter stories that he's far enough from now to be able to laugh at a little. Jesse shivers at the brush of her lips against his cheek. God, how did he get so lucky? ]
Man...
[ Jesse glances upwards in thought. ]
It's been years. Unless, like, you count those s'mores-flavored Pop-Tarts.
[ He nudges his shoulder against Alexis' playfully. Jesse presses a quick kiss to her jawline before he pushes himself up so he can go in the RV and retrieve the stuff they need for the s'mores. He's back quickly with a bag of marshmallows, a box of graham crackers, and some chocolate bars. He even bought some 'Smore's sticks' from the supermarket, which really are little more than over-priced wood dowels sharpened at one end, but whatever. Might as well go all out for date night, right?
He sets all the stuff down and then goes about helping to clean up whatever food they're finished with so he can pack the leftovers into the fridge. Better off only keeping out what's necessary so they don't attract too many desert critters, though it's been a quiet night so far. The fire's probably enough to keep most stuff away. Finally, he finishes with his rushing around and tosses a couple more logs onto the fire before he settles by it. The folding chairs probably weren't even necessary. Not for tonight, anyway, when he wants to stick close to Alexis and keep her warm. ]
As long as you don't judge me too hard for them. My family always get so exasperated with me about it.
[She doesn't just sit around and look pretty. She starts cleaning up, fluttering about to help Jesse get everything ready for their s'mores. It's completely dark in the desert now save for their fire. The moon is bright, but only half full. It makes the stars twinkle even more all around it. She's buzzing a little from his soft kiss. She definitely wants more. She hasn't really been able to get him out of her head since their night together.
With the leftovers of the picnic basket tucked away in the fridge, the RV is left alone for now because the real party is by the fire pit. She wiggled in excitement as he gets all the goodies out. She spears a fluffy marshmallow with the stick and offers it to him before making another for herself. She roasts it over the fire and watched it slowly turn golden.]
I don't think I've ever had s'mores pop tarts. Are they any good?
Nah, no judgments here. This is, uh, a judgment-free zone. Totally.
[ Jesse smiles, but he means it even though it's said in a lighthearted tone. By the time he settles back by the fire, he finds himself getting a little lost looking up at the stars, like he does every time he's out here in the quiet and the dark. Most of the time he's out here by himself, save for the times he'd come out to work, but Alexis is the only person he's shown this place. He wants to let her into his life and share things that he doesn't share with anyone else. Eventually he'll be able to tell her more, but this at least lays the groundwork for that later conversation.
He takes the stick and holds it over the fire, trying to be careful not to ignite the marshmallow, even if he sometimes likes the charred ones. ]
Admittedly, I've only had 'em when I was super stoned so, like, they were really good but so is a lot of stuff when you're high. They weren't as good as the real thing, though.
[ He laughs and, distracted, ends up holding the marshmallow in one spot for too long. He does a double-take before realizing it's on fire. ]
Oh, shit!
[ Jesse pulls it from the flames and blows on it a few times until it's out. It's burnt, but only on the outside. He makes a s'more with it anyway, laughing at how easily he's distracted. ]
I guess gettin' em all golden brown is for people with a better attention span than mine.
I feel like I can tell you anything, and you won't judge me.
[She's happy for that. Jesse is so easygoing and laidback. She still marvels at how easily the conversation comes between them. Things just come out without needing much thought. She's slowly turning her marshmallow in the flame. She chuckles a little. She's been high on so many different things, and she's definitely been guilty of munching on a strawberry Pop-Tart during a time or two.]
I always wanted Doritos when I was high. I don't really like them in general, but I always craved them whenever it happened.
[She's not even all that particular on which flavor though she remembers getting the blue bag often. She startles a little when his marshmallow ignites. Her hands flutter helplessly as if she wants to help him but unsure how. She leans in to study it.]
Still looks good to me! If you want, you can have mine!
[She pulls out her gooey golden brown marshmallow and winks at him.]
[ Jesse says suddenly, but then laughs at his reaction, leaning over to get a chunk of chocolate and some graham crackers to hold the whole thing together. ]
I mean, nah. I'm good with this charred mess I created. Sometimes the burnt bit adds flavor as long as it's not, like, totally obliterated.
[ Jesse smiles, because he's been there--burned marshmallows beyond the salvage point. It's happened enough times for him to laugh about it. ]
But yeah...you can tell me anything. I mean, I know it takes time to earn that kinda trust, but...I won't let you down.
[ His expression grows a little more serious, wanting to convey that he means it. He doesn't expect any crazy confessions or anything, especially only on the second date, but he wants to let her know that he's going to work on earning her trust. ]
[She's giggling at his refusal. She reached for the chocolate and graham cracker too, so she can squish it all together in a delicious treat. It's hard to take a ladylike bite, so she just goes all in and hopes for the best. She has a smear of chocolate and marshmallow on her lips that she tries to lick up, a hand coming up to politely hide what a mess she is.]
I really like that about you. I feel like you just get me, you know? I really hope that I make you feel like that too.
[She gently bumps her shoulder against his and offers him a bite of her s'more. Alexis playfully steals a bite from his to get a taste of his charred creation.] I want you to know you can tell me anything too. I'm hard to freak out.
[ Jesse only laughs harder at Alexis' reaction to his refusal, watching as she takes a messy bite of her s'more, following suit. He actually makes sure he gets himself a little messy, too, just to make her feel better even though it's kind of hard to eat without making a mess. Chocolate on his face, he gestures. ]
You, uh...got a little something...
[ Jesse can't hold in his laugh, but he leans in to kiss her anyway, making a mess of them both. Luckily, he brought out a stack of napkins for them that he placed a rock on top of so they wouldn't blow away in case of wind. He wipes at his face and then offers Alexis a few napkins, too, a goofy grin stuck on that he couldn't quell if he tried. ]
Yeah, I feel like that too, for sure.
[ He thinks for a moment, taking a deep breath before he starts talking. ]
Okay, so um. The first time I came out here? It, uh. It wasn't to clear my head. The first time I came out here...I was out this way for um...drug manufacturing. Methamphetamine.
[ He rushes the next words, in an effort not to scare her off entirely with that first factoid. ]
I don't, like...I don't really smoke it anymore. Just, um. Sell it. Sometimes. I was kinda tryin' to get out of the game, actually...but this guy. My partner. He, uh. He blackmailed me into stayin' in and partnering up with him. He's kind of an asshole a lot of the time but like...he's sick. Lung cancer. I guess he needed a way to make some fast cash to, y'know, leave behind somethin' for his family before he bites the big one.
[ Jesse winces a little, not quite able to meet Alexis' eyes. It's a pretty huge confession, but he feels a weight lift off his shoulders when he admits it. She deserves to know a little of what she's getting into and if she wants nothing to do with him after this, well, he would understand even if he'd be heartbroken. ]
It doesn't feel right not tellin' you. I uh, I didn't wanna tell you when you were in a position where you couldn't just like, leave on your own if you wanted to but just like, say the words and I'll drive you back. No judgments, like I said...
[She giggles a little louder when he ends up just as messy as her. S'mores are messy in general, but she appreciates it. The kiss is even more welcome. Her free hand comes up to cup the back of his neck as she deepens it. They taste deliciously sweet together, and it makes her crave more. When she pulls back, she takes napkin from him to clean up. She knows she's got a silly smile on her face, but he draws it out of her so easily.
The smile slowly fades as she becomes more solemn. She fees the shift in the air. Jesse has her full attention. Whatever he has to tell her, it's serious.
Her brows knit together as he explains what he's been caught up in. It's not her first time to be involved with a drug dealer, but likely the first with a drug manufacturer. She feels an indignation on his behalf. Cancer or not, his partner sounds like a huge dick.]
He's blackmailing you? Who does he think he is? [Her tone is affronted. She has a bone to pick with his partner. It's not even a thought in her mind to have Jesse take her home.]
[ For some reason Jesse feels a distinct need to defend Mr. White. He has since the beginning. As much as the guy gets on his nerves from time to time, he's also definitely saved Jesse's life on more than one occasion, and had gotten them out of a tight bind even more times. He's not all bad, or maybe that's exactly the way he's been manipulated to feel. ]
I dunno. That's how he got me to agree to work with him at first but, like, I think it's different now. Honestly I probably wouldn't've helped him out otherwise. Guess he was just, like, desperate considering his health problems and all. We kinda....have an agreement goin' these days and, like, we work for someone else now.
[ Jesse doesn't know how much detail he can go into about that. Not because he doesn't trust Alexis, but because he worries about her knowing too much and if that would ever put her in any kind of danger. He'd never forgive himself if it did. ]
I'm not, like, planning to stay in the game much longer. He said, like, a few more months and we'll be set, so. I don't know. I know it's not the ideal situation but um...I felt like you deserve to know, so.
[ Jesse bites his lower lip and reaches out to take her hand, squeezing gently and looking into her eyes, trying to read her. ]
[She might only know Jesse briefly, but she can tell he's so loyal. When he feels connected to someone, he's going to hold them down no matter what. This partner of his has that unfailingly loyalty even if it was nurtured on an unsavory seed. She isn't thrilled about it. She doesn't think it's right, but Jesse is trying to reassure her. Her concern only deepens when he mentions they work for someone else. She's been in enough situations like these to know that there's a drug lord somewhere in this game. Jesse and his partner are the makers. Not the businessman.
It's a dangerous game he's in, but she knows he knows that too. He squeezes her hand, but she wiggles out of it so she can wrap her arms around him and hold him close.]
Thank you for telling me. I'm just-- a little worried about you. Like I know you know all the risks but still.
[ Jesse sighs, his eyes slipping shut as he leans into Alexis' embrace, his chin resting lightly on her shoulder. It feels good to feel cared about, even though he doesn't want her to worry.
He wants to reassure her more--tell her again that this is just a temporary arrangement; three months and he'll be a millionaire without a care in the world, so long as he keeps his head down and plays his cards right. He wants to let her know that it's way less dangerous than cooking out here and slinging on street corners had been, even if it means he and Mr. White have given up a lot of control in the process. It's still safer. There's less risk, for now. ]
Like I said. A few more months and I'm out. Won't ever have to do it again.
[ Jesse pulls back and cups her face, looking in her eyes. ]
Then maybe I can spoil you. Take you somewhere. To celebrate my newfound freedom.
[Yeah, he's being a dreamer and thinking big. It's only their second date, but Jesse's already thinking optimistically about the future and, even if it seems like too much too soon, he can't lie and say he doesn't hope his future means a future for them, too. ]
[She has no right to tell him what to do or how to handle his business. He's been in this since before she came into his life. Alexis knows that all she can do is be there for him and support him. He's not the first person she's cared about that she's helped out on precarious situations. She turns her head to brush her lips along his cheek when he settles his chin on her shoulder. She keeps him close.
A few more months, he says. He cups her face and looks at her so earnestly. He wants to spoil her and take her away. She smiles at him adoringly. The affection fills her heart so much, it feels like it's going to burst.]
What if I want to take you away somewhere nice? Come on an adventure with me. Even if it's just for the weekend.
I mean...I could probably clear it with my boss. Maybe. S'long as it all works out, yeah, I can go. Maybe just put in some overtime hours in the days before and I should be able to make quota ahead of time, which would give me a few days off.
[ Jesse formulates the plan out loud, then nods at the end, after going over everything in his head. Seems legit to him; he'd be telling his boss he has plans he wants to honor and at the same time he'd suggest he works some extra hours to make up for lost time. That way the shipment still goes out on time, all the work's done as ordered, and Walt and Jesse still get some time off. He's pretty sure Walt will bite at the chance, so Jesse nods. He nods and grins, face lighting up with his smile as he watches Alexis' face with eager eyes. ]
Yeah; I could totally pull it off. I mean, I'm yours if you wanna go someplace. Just say the words. 'Course, if you're planning stuff then I'm gonna insist you let me pay for the outings. Meals and whatnot, at least.
[ He leans into Alexis' hold, but can't help himself when he finds his lips tracing her pulse along the side of her neck. He mouths gently at the spot just beneath her earlobe once his mouth trails there. ]
[She gives a happy squeak when he says he could probably do it. She initially offers it just offhand because he's so focused on taking care of her when she doesn't really need it at all. Alexis appreciates it. His heart is in the right place. She doesn't want to overwhelm him, so she concedes to some of his conditions. Her nose playfully wrinkles.]
We'll split the costs. Planning is nothing.
[Her voice turns breathy and distracted at the feel of his lips. A soft sigh escapes her. She tilts her head for him to let him continue his track, but her hand reaches for him. Her fingers curl in his shirt to draw him closer. There's nothing more perfect than this moment with him under the stars.]
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Date: 2022-09-27 03:10 am (UTC)Sounds like I have another excuse to come over to your place then.
[She picks up a finger sandwich. She likes those little cucumber sandwiches, but she guesses Jesse might want something a little heartier. There's smoked salmon with cream cheese and dill as well as ham with brie and thin apple slices. She chooses the ham to nibble on.] I hope you like it. I know I got a little carried away, but at least we'll have something to eat if we stay until morning!
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Date: 2022-09-27 03:37 am (UTC)You don't need an excuse to come over. You can just ask.
[ Jesse smiles, teasing. He knew what she meant, but he always gives the people he likes a little bit of a hard time. Just to see them smile if for nothing else. He chooses a ham sandwich after his prosciutto and cheese, though he eats the thing in one bit even though it's probably meant for two or three. Dainty he is not. But he tries. ]
I packed some stuff in the mini-fridge for breakfast, but the fridge means we got room for the leftovers, so they won't be wasted either way. Are you busy tomorrow? Like...if we stay is there a certain time you gotta be back by?
[ Jesse wants to make sure she knows he realizes she has other obligations and he wants to respect that. ]
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Date: 2022-09-27 12:34 pm (UTC)[She doesn't miss a beat when he offers. She's playfully teasing though she is intrigued by the idea of curling up with him before it. It's not the right weather for it necessarily, not like the coldness of the desert all the way out here. Then again, if they get too warm, they can just take off their clothes. Problem solved. With a sandwich finished off, she tries the smoked salmon and sighs at how good it is. She's pleased that he's thoughtful enough to pack food for breakfast. She's sold on staying here overnight with him.]
You're a pretty romantic guy, you know that?
[She's been on all kinds of dates over the years. All across the world. But this one takes the cake. It's intimate and sweet, and she's enjoying every moment. She shakes her head and reassures him she doesn't have plans in the morning. Her mornings usually consist of an early morning run, but she can go without.]
Nah. I've got all the time in the world right now.
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Date: 2022-09-27 06:03 pm (UTC)Yeah, of course.
[ He bites his lower lip, giving her an almost apologetic look when she calls him romantic. He knows she doesn't mean it in a bad way, but he's also aware of the fact that it's not everybody's thing. If his friends found out about this, they'd probably poke fun at him for days, but that's just the way they are. They don't mean real harm by it. The truth is, Jesse's always been a romantic at heart. He just hasn't had many opportunities to show that side of him to anyone. ]
Is that...cool with you?
[ He has to ask, even though she hasn't given him any signs that what he's been doing bothers her. Jesse's just the type of guy who has to check in on how the people around him are doing. He's not always the best judge of what might be going on in someone's head. ]
Cool, I'll cook us breakfast in the morning, then.
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Date: 2022-09-27 08:00 pm (UTC)[Ted has been like that. Her boyfriends prior, not quite. Alexis had once been led by the shine of adventure and excitement and handsome faces. Having boyfriend throw money at her and take her on fancy trips isn't true affection. It doesn't mean they actually cared. She's learned that now, and she likes to think she has better taste in partners.
Jesse sometimes gets this almost bashful look on his face when they talk. It's like he's shy. Or worried. She wants him to know she's in this with him. There's no faking it or pretending. She's here because she likes him. He makes her laugh and smile. She feeds him a piece of fruit.]
So tell me. What's your favorite thing about being out here?
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Date: 2022-09-27 09:30 pm (UTC)[ Jesse nods and gives Alexis a smile to let her know he's not just saying that and trying to hide his feelings or anything. Being romantic just...comes naturally to him. It feels like the right thing to do, to him. Why not show someone you're growing feelings for that you care? It seems almost silly not to. He's well aware that life's too short. If you don't show someone how you feel now, you might never get a chance for it later.
He eats the piece of fruit and then picks up another sandwich, chewing as he thinks over her question. ]
Definitely the stars. There's no light pollution out here, so once it gets fully dark you can see more stars than you ever can in the city. They used to take us on these field trips to the planetarium at school and I swear it looks just like that. Sometimes you can catch a few shooting stars, too.
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Date: 2022-09-27 09:53 pm (UTC)[With the fire burning, it's not too cold. The stars are really starting to shine brighter. Her shoulder brushes against his. She nibbles on some of the pasta salad and sips at the wine. Gazing up at the sky, she does feel a lovely sense of peace wash over her. She's really glad that they came out here.]
I love living in the city, but I love sights like these too. I remember being out in the middle of nowhere in Thailand. Everything was so crazy, and I wasn't sure I was going to make it home safely but-- I just looked up at the sky and all the stars, and it felt like it would all be okay.
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Date: 2022-09-27 11:16 pm (UTC)[ Jesse scoots a little closer to her, but doesn't put his arm around her just yet. Only because they're still picking at the food she brought for dinner. Jesse eats another piece of fruit and takes a sip from his tumbler of wine. ]
Thailand, huh? That must've been pretty cool. I've only seen it on, like, TV or whatever. Never been out of the country. Hell, I've barely left the state. Someday, though.
[ He smiles, thinking. Some day he'll be able to retire and travel the world. Keeping his mind on thoughts like that makes the rough days easier. ]
But--hold on, you said you weren't sure you'd make it home safe? What happened?
[ Jesse turns his body more towards hers, eager to find out. Partially because he can definitely relate to being in unsafe situations, but also because she doesn't seem like the type to get herself into those situations. He's curious. ]
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Date: 2022-09-27 11:58 pm (UTC)[It's said lightly and matter of factly. It's simply part of her life. Aroon had been very nice. Granted, she had to bribe him with sex, but she figures that's not something she should bring up on a date. She's not ashamed of what she did, but she doesn't want Jesse to see her differently. Or judge her for it. She really wants him to like her.]
It all ended up working out in the end!
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Date: 2022-09-28 02:13 pm (UTC)[ Jesse's eyes widen. ]
That's...yeah, I'm glad you made it out safe, too.
[ For a moment, he's tempted to talk about how he can relate--why he truly knows how harrowing a situation it must have been, if Thai drug lords are anything like Mexican ones. He surely remembers what it was like waking up in Tuco's trunk, a machine gun pointed at his face. But thankfully, they were both alive to tell the tale or...to not tell it. He does want to tell her, but he's afraid of where the line of questioning might lead after that, and he doesn't want to put her in a position where she feels uncomfortable but can't leave. So, he keeps it to himself, for now.
Jesse finishes his plate of pasta salad and scoots a little closer, slipping an arm around Alexis' lower back. He still had a hand free to sip at his wine and pick at some fruit if he wants, but he's also making sure to leave room for s'mores. ]
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Date: 2022-09-28 02:33 pm (UTC)[She gives him a teasing wink. Alexis has certainly seen and been through a lot, but she's never let it get her down. From checkpoints in South Africa to playing billiard for her friend's freedom in a Ugandan drug smuggler's villa, she doesn't spook very easy. She doesn't look it. With her bubbly demeanor and boss babe energy, people usually didn't expect her to be taken hostage so many times.
She loves the warmth of his arm around her. She leans in and brushes her lips along his cheek. She's really excited for s'mores.]
When's the last you had s'mores?
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Date: 2022-09-28 03:08 pm (UTC)[ And maybe someday he'll be able to share some of what he's been through, too, though it's undoubtedly heavy subject matter, even if there are some lighter stories that he's far enough from now to be able to laugh at a little. Jesse shivers at the brush of her lips against his cheek. God, how did he get so lucky? ]
Man...
[ Jesse glances upwards in thought. ]
It's been years. Unless, like, you count those s'mores-flavored Pop-Tarts.
[ He nudges his shoulder against Alexis' playfully. Jesse presses a quick kiss to her jawline before he pushes himself up so he can go in the RV and retrieve the stuff they need for the s'mores. He's back quickly with a bag of marshmallows, a box of graham crackers, and some chocolate bars. He even bought some 'Smore's sticks' from the supermarket, which really are little more than over-priced wood dowels sharpened at one end, but whatever. Might as well go all out for date night, right?
He sets all the stuff down and then goes about helping to clean up whatever food they're finished with so he can pack the leftovers into the fridge. Better off only keeping out what's necessary so they don't attract too many desert critters, though it's been a quiet night so far. The fire's probably enough to keep most stuff away. Finally, he finishes with his rushing around and tosses a couple more logs onto the fire before he settles by it. The folding chairs probably weren't even necessary. Not for tonight, anyway, when he wants to stick close to Alexis and keep her warm. ]
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Date: 2022-09-28 03:25 pm (UTC)[She doesn't just sit around and look pretty. She starts cleaning up, fluttering about to help Jesse get everything ready for their s'mores. It's completely dark in the desert now save for their fire. The moon is bright, but only half full. It makes the stars twinkle even more all around it. She's buzzing a little from his soft kiss. She definitely wants more. She hasn't really been able to get him out of her head since their night together.
With the leftovers of the picnic basket tucked away in the fridge, the RV is left alone for now because the real party is by the fire pit. She wiggled in excitement as he gets all the goodies out. She spears a fluffy marshmallow with the stick and offers it to him before making another for herself. She roasts it over the fire and watched it slowly turn golden.]
I don't think I've ever had s'mores pop tarts. Are they any good?
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Date: 2022-09-28 04:09 pm (UTC)[ Jesse smiles, but he means it even though it's said in a lighthearted tone. By the time he settles back by the fire, he finds himself getting a little lost looking up at the stars, like he does every time he's out here in the quiet and the dark. Most of the time he's out here by himself, save for the times he'd come out to work, but Alexis is the only person he's shown this place. He wants to let her into his life and share things that he doesn't share with anyone else. Eventually he'll be able to tell her more, but this at least lays the groundwork for that later conversation.
He takes the stick and holds it over the fire, trying to be careful not to ignite the marshmallow, even if he sometimes likes the charred ones. ]
Admittedly, I've only had 'em when I was super stoned so, like, they were really good but so is a lot of stuff when you're high. They weren't as good as the real thing, though.
[ He laughs and, distracted, ends up holding the marshmallow in one spot for too long. He does a double-take before realizing it's on fire. ]
Oh, shit!
[ Jesse pulls it from the flames and blows on it a few times until it's out. It's burnt, but only on the outside. He makes a s'more with it anyway, laughing at how easily he's distracted. ]
I guess gettin' em all golden brown is for people with a better attention span than mine.
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Date: 2022-09-29 01:09 am (UTC)[She's happy for that. Jesse is so easygoing and laidback. She still marvels at how easily the conversation comes between them. Things just come out without needing much thought. She's slowly turning her marshmallow in the flame. She chuckles a little. She's been high on so many different things, and she's definitely been guilty of munching on a strawberry Pop-Tart during a time or two.]
I always wanted Doritos when I was high. I don't really like them in general, but I always craved them whenever it happened.
[She's not even all that particular on which flavor though she remembers getting the blue bag often. She startles a little when his marshmallow ignites. Her hands flutter helplessly as if she wants to help him but unsure how. She leans in to study it.]
Still looks good to me! If you want, you can have mine!
[She pulls out her gooey golden brown marshmallow and winks at him.]
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Date: 2022-09-30 02:15 am (UTC)[ Jesse says suddenly, but then laughs at his reaction, leaning over to get a chunk of chocolate and some graham crackers to hold the whole thing together. ]
I mean, nah. I'm good with this charred mess I created. Sometimes the burnt bit adds flavor as long as it's not, like, totally obliterated.
[ Jesse smiles, because he's been there--burned marshmallows beyond the salvage point. It's happened enough times for him to laugh about it. ]
But yeah...you can tell me anything. I mean, I know it takes time to earn that kinda trust, but...I won't let you down.
[ His expression grows a little more serious, wanting to convey that he means it. He doesn't expect any crazy confessions or anything, especially only on the second date, but he wants to let her know that he's going to work on earning her trust. ]
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Date: 2022-09-30 02:34 am (UTC)[She's giggling at his refusal. She reached for the chocolate and graham cracker too, so she can squish it all together in a delicious treat. It's hard to take a ladylike bite, so she just goes all in and hopes for the best. She has a smear of chocolate and marshmallow on her lips that she tries to lick up, a hand coming up to politely hide what a mess she is.]
I really like that about you. I feel like you just get me, you know? I really hope that I make you feel like that too.
[She gently bumps her shoulder against his and offers him a bite of her s'more. Alexis playfully steals a bite from his to get a taste of his charred creation.] I want you to know you can tell me anything too. I'm hard to freak out.
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Date: 2022-09-30 03:30 am (UTC)You, uh...got a little something...
[ Jesse can't hold in his laugh, but he leans in to kiss her anyway, making a mess of them both. Luckily, he brought out a stack of napkins for them that he placed a rock on top of so they wouldn't blow away in case of wind. He wipes at his face and then offers Alexis a few napkins, too, a goofy grin stuck on that he couldn't quell if he tried. ]
Yeah, I feel like that too, for sure.
[ He thinks for a moment, taking a deep breath before he starts talking. ]
Okay, so um. The first time I came out here? It, uh. It wasn't to clear my head. The first time I came out here...I was out this way for um...drug manufacturing. Methamphetamine.
[ He rushes the next words, in an effort not to scare her off entirely with that first factoid. ]
I don't, like...I don't really smoke it anymore. Just, um. Sell it. Sometimes. I was kinda tryin' to get out of the game, actually...but this guy. My partner. He, uh. He blackmailed me into stayin' in and partnering up with him. He's kind of an asshole a lot of the time but like...he's sick. Lung cancer. I guess he needed a way to make some fast cash to, y'know, leave behind somethin' for his family before he bites the big one.
[ Jesse winces a little, not quite able to meet Alexis' eyes. It's a pretty huge confession, but he feels a weight lift off his shoulders when he admits it. She deserves to know a little of what she's getting into and if she wants nothing to do with him after this, well, he would understand even if he'd be heartbroken. ]
It doesn't feel right not tellin' you. I uh, I didn't wanna tell you when you were in a position where you couldn't just like, leave on your own if you wanted to but just like, say the words and I'll drive you back. No judgments, like I said...
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Date: 2022-09-30 07:40 pm (UTC)The smile slowly fades as she becomes more solemn. She fees the shift in the air. Jesse has her full attention. Whatever he has to tell her, it's serious.
Her brows knit together as he explains what he's been caught up in. It's not her first time to be involved with a drug dealer, but likely the first with a drug manufacturer. She feels an indignation on his behalf. Cancer or not, his partner sounds like a huge dick.]
He's blackmailing you? Who does he think he is? [Her tone is affronted. She has a bone to pick with his partner. It's not even a thought in her mind to have Jesse take her home.]
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Date: 2022-09-30 08:39 pm (UTC)I dunno. That's how he got me to agree to work with him at first but, like, I think it's different now. Honestly I probably wouldn't've helped him out otherwise. Guess he was just, like, desperate considering his health problems and all. We kinda....have an agreement goin' these days and, like, we work for someone else now.
[ Jesse doesn't know how much detail he can go into about that. Not because he doesn't trust Alexis, but because he worries about her knowing too much and if that would ever put her in any kind of danger. He'd never forgive himself if it did. ]
I'm not, like, planning to stay in the game much longer. He said, like, a few more months and we'll be set, so. I don't know. I know it's not the ideal situation but um...I felt like you deserve to know, so.
[ Jesse bites his lower lip and reaches out to take her hand, squeezing gently and looking into her eyes, trying to read her. ]
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Date: 2022-09-30 11:23 pm (UTC)It's a dangerous game he's in, but she knows he knows that too. He squeezes her hand, but she wiggles out of it so she can wrap her arms around him and hold him close.]
Thank you for telling me. I'm just-- a little worried about you. Like I know you know all the risks but still.
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Date: 2022-09-30 11:43 pm (UTC)[ Jesse sighs, his eyes slipping shut as he leans into Alexis' embrace, his chin resting lightly on her shoulder. It feels good to feel cared about, even though he doesn't want her to worry.
He wants to reassure her more--tell her again that this is just a temporary arrangement; three months and he'll be a millionaire without a care in the world, so long as he keeps his head down and plays his cards right. He wants to let her know that it's way less dangerous than cooking out here and slinging on street corners had been, even if it means he and Mr. White have given up a lot of control in the process. It's still safer. There's less risk, for now. ]
Like I said. A few more months and I'm out. Won't ever have to do it again.
[ Jesse pulls back and cups her face, looking in her eyes. ]
Then maybe I can spoil you. Take you somewhere. To celebrate my newfound freedom.
[Yeah, he's being a dreamer and thinking big. It's only their second date, but Jesse's already thinking optimistically about the future and, even if it seems like too much too soon, he can't lie and say he doesn't hope his future means a future for them, too. ]
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Date: 2022-10-01 11:03 pm (UTC)[She has no right to tell him what to do or how to handle his business. He's been in this since before she came into his life. Alexis knows that all she can do is be there for him and support him. He's not the first person she's cared about that she's helped out on precarious situations. She turns her head to brush her lips along his cheek when he settles his chin on her shoulder. She keeps him close.
A few more months, he says. He cups her face and looks at her so earnestly. He wants to spoil her and take her away. She smiles at him adoringly. The affection fills her heart so much, it feels like it's going to burst.]
What if I want to take you away somewhere nice? Come on an adventure with me. Even if it's just for the weekend.
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Date: 2022-10-11 04:23 am (UTC)[ Jesse formulates the plan out loud, then nods at the end, after going over everything in his head. Seems legit to him; he'd be telling his boss he has plans he wants to honor and at the same time he'd suggest he works some extra hours to make up for lost time. That way the shipment still goes out on time, all the work's done as ordered, and Walt and Jesse still get some time off. He's pretty sure Walt will bite at the chance, so Jesse nods. He nods and grins, face lighting up with his smile as he watches Alexis' face with eager eyes. ]
Yeah; I could totally pull it off. I mean, I'm yours if you wanna go someplace. Just say the words. 'Course, if you're planning stuff then I'm gonna insist you let me pay for the outings. Meals and whatnot, at least.
[ He leans into Alexis' hold, but can't help himself when he finds his lips tracing her pulse along the side of her neck. He mouths gently at the spot just beneath her earlobe once his mouth trails there. ]
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Date: 2022-10-11 02:34 pm (UTC)We'll split the costs. Planning is nothing.
[Her voice turns breathy and distracted at the feel of his lips. A soft sigh escapes her. She tilts her head for him to let him continue his track, but her hand reaches for him. Her fingers curl in his shirt to draw him closer. There's nothing more perfect than this moment with him under the stars.]
Jesse.
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